QT: Against My Will

153 3.14.58 – Ho Ho Ho – Downfall of Humanity

“Please,” answered Ziek instantly.

“Good boy,” Bing Shi took out her phone and showed him a picture when she was twelve, “Here.”

“...” Ziek opened his eyes wide, “There is no way it’s you.”

Bing Shi clutched her stomach in laughter, “Yes, it’s me.”

“How?” Ziek asked in confusion.

“My mother told me not to waste food,” Bing Shi put her phone away.

“Your mother totally brainwashed you,” Ziek watched her phone like a hawk its prey.

“She was a good woman, at least she gave me food. Not like someone’s else mother,” she giggled and blocked him from taking her phone away, “That’s my phone.”

“True,” Ziek chuckled, “I want that picture, the other ones too...please.”

.....

“So you could do naughty things? No,” Bing Shi refused in amusement, “Grandson, how about I adopt you?”

“Why not?” Ziek laughed. She was so chill about everything, “Fuck, no.”

“Watch your mouth, young man,” Bing Shi crossed her arms and said in a severe tone.

“Fuck no, please.”

“Bwahaha,” Bing Shi’s serious tone disappeared, “Oh my goodness.” She burst out with laughter, “My mouth hurts so much.”

“One LVL 4 nucleus for being a comedian,” Ziek chuckled. Just a little shark, and see how happy she was, laughing at every silly thing he said.

“Noooo, I have no money,” Bing Shi ran away, “Bye-bye. It was nice to meet you ??.”

“Hey, what about your big brother?” Ziek ran after her.

Bing Shi stopped and turned towards Ziek, “Can I sell him?”

“...Pfft...,” Ziek laughed out loud and looked at the levitating man next to him, “Should I wake this siscon and tell you on him?”

“Go ahead, he is used to it,” Bing Shi shrugged off her shoulders, “When will he wake up?”

“He spent lots of energy during our sparing. Half an hour, maybe?” said Ziek.

“You are such a troll. I can’t believe you shot him with an injection, right after you dropped Fu Lian on him,” Bing Shi laughed.

“I learned from you,” Ziek grinned.

Bing Shi took out her phone, “Did you know that if you love someone too much, you’ll wish for their happiness? What if one day, you’ll give up your place for my boyfriend?”

“Why are you telling me your plan?” Ziek asked with curiosity, “Do you like it on the hard mode that much?”

“Hm, who knows?” said Bing Shi with an empty expression, “I need to find out as much information as possible. Aren’t you curious too? For example, why is my boyfriend’s lifetime haunting your dreams? Why not other lifetimes? Give me your phone.”

“Fuck all my lifetimes,” Ziek gave her his phone, “Do you know how to get a system like Kuro? I’d like one too.”

“You are a lost cause,” Bing Shi shook her head in defeat, “I don’t know. I asked about you, but the HQ is too busy to answer my questions.” She sent him a few pictures, “Do you think those photos would trigger your memories even more?” She gave him back the phone.

Ziek accepted the phone, “Probably. They are different compared to the memories I received from Ziek. These are fucking me up too much, and I don’t like it.”

“Did you start to like me, due to those memories?” asked Bing Shi.

“No, you never appeared in them. That bastard has to be hiding you from me,” Ziek scoffed, “Fuck him. I’m tired of looking at those fucking stocks all day.”

“...” Bing Shi became speechless. If someone heard their conversation, they’d think that she and Ziek were in some crazy love triangle. While in truth, it’s just Ziek struggling with his past life. “I can’t imagine what I would do if this happened to me. Was this half a year hard on you?” she asked.

Ziek blinked a few times, looking up, he said with a cracked voice, “My whole life was fucking hard.”

Bing Shi looked down, “See, if you choose a single girl, she would hold your hand and hug you. Why make it even harder? You are so stupid. A complete masochist.”

“It’s not easy to find a girl who will hold my hand and hug me without any ulterior motives,” he said as they passed through the entrance to the base, “You sound like you care about me.”

“I’m not. Just pointing out all your mistakes,” answered Bing Shi, walking towards Yi Zen’s tent, they placed him on the bed and left.

Ziek walked towards Bing Shi’s tent in reluctance. Who knew when he’ll get a chance to spent some time with her? When they finally appeared before her tent, he stopped her from going inside, “Would you love me if I became him?”

“Of course not,” said Bing Shi without any hesitation, “Just like you, I don’t want any pretense in a relationship.”

“...” What was he thinking when he asked that question? Was he that desperate? Wouldn’t usually people in those novels accept their soulmates in every lifetime? Wasn’t his situation similar?

But what could he do? A life without Bing Shi was extremely dull. When will another Bing Shi fall from the sky again? Lust? Women were here only to be fucked? Who was he kidding?! He kept falling in love all over the place!

And best of all? A taken one! With her, it’s so easy to be himself, to be happy. He even learned how to enjoy small things in life, like making her giggle with his skills! It felt even better than winning a jackpot! How would he get out of this never-ending cycle?!

In the end, he had two choices, to live and get hurt or to be a walking corpse. He decided to live and get hurt first and become a walking corpse later. He didn’t know how to live better. That’s how shitty his life was.

Bing Shi looked at the lost boy who stood before her tent like a broken statue. He was a lot stronger than the young Xuan Mu, who would give up halfway through Ziek’s life. “Do you want to hug Kuro? It might help you,” saying, she went inside and returned with Kuro in her arms, “Here.”

Ziek’s mouth twitched, “What the...No.”