Chapter 103: Chapter 103 Regret.
I look at Soma, who rarely shows his helpless smile. Suddenly, my body stiffened, and unconsciously, I clenched our interlocking hands. Even at the moment, I don't intend to release my hands from him.
Hearing the tone Soma uses, it seems the story would be a serious one. But I am ready to listen to it. I don't know where it started from the bottom of my heart. I want to know more about him, things about his favorite foods, hobbies, and many more that he still hides from me.
"I am sorry, Hina, I lied to you about something".
As I was deep in my thoughts while looking at his face, My thoughts ceased as the first word he said to me was a lie.
My body unconsciously tensed up and loosened the strength in our interlocking hands. I could feel my fingertips start to turn cold from the trauma that was still haunting me. "Is it perhaps another lie? Did he also want to betray my trust?".
A negative thought began to swirl in my head, clouding my mind. The memories that we spent together started to replicate, and those images began to show a crack. My body starts to tremble, and Soma probably senses something wrong with me.
"...You probably think something else, but the truth is My parents were not killed in an accident. They were killed by that chubby man who appears in the scene when I chased that demon woman".
Hearing about the lines he had just uttered sent a chill that pierced my spine. My body stiffened, and it stunned me to the core to hear a demon kill his parents. I looked straight to his eyes, then, toward my parents, who stood beside me, and they were showing their surprised faces just like me. It seems they also don't know about this story.
"...Also, I am also the survivor from Project Red, seven years ago in Yokohama".
"Project Red?!".
"Lies?!".
My dad and Mom showed an unusual reaction where my dad, who usually had a calm upbringing, became agitated, and my mom, who burst out crying while covering her open mouth, was overwhelmed by Soma's background.
"...Seems like you guys know it. So let's start it, when my parents died that night seven years ago...".
Soma starts to share his story about how the past can shape him into the person he currently is. It begins with his parents being killed, and he is being detained in some facility that turns a human child into something they call a demon race.
"...Luckily, the facility was being raided the moment my time almost came to be injected. I survived, and I was being taken care of by the government until I graduated from middle school...".
I have no words to say after hearing his story. My parents and I just stood there without words, listening to his background, while sometimes I clenched his hands so hard to assure him that I was there.
"...Then I was like a wandering ghost who searched for a place to stay before I met you guys, who were being attacked by demons".
Soma told me about the event that happened the night he saved my parents. At the same time, a sudden thought began to dawn upon me, but I still didn't put too much thought and put it in the corner of my mind.
Then the story progresses when he tells us that he is scared of the chaos and the appearance of the demon, but deep down, he is worried about my mom, who was injured in front of him, and he tries to save her.
"... I brace myself and approach Miss Hisako, but even on the verge of death says this to me. 'Please tell our daughter we are sorry we couldn't accompany you to your new academy and celebrated it together'. At that time, my heart was hesitating. But I resolved my heart to save both of them, afraid that your daughter will become something like me...".
The story that I didn't know and heard directly from Soma's mouth. I turned to glance at my mom, who was full of tears and holding an urge to hug Soma.
"...But, I am relieved that I can save you guys and also managed to foil their plan, albeit a little".
I noticed Soma's hands were clenched and his brows were knitted, probably still pissedd off about the Demon.
"Soma, we are truly thankful for that time".
"...Yeah, I will never forget that day until my death".
My parents give him a heart full amount of gratitude, and my mom, who couldn't help herself any longer, cries on my dad's chest. Seeing them like that makes me feel so happy that they still live and are still there with me.
I look at Soma, who also shows a happy expression. I loosen the muscles on my face. When I tried to open my mouth to say my gratitude, the thought that I put in the corner of my mind started to resurface, and I loosened the strength in our connected hands.
"...What are you after?".
"What do you mean?".
"...Okay, let me be clear, I don't trust you...".
That thought started to occupy my mind, and my brain throbbed intensely, making me dizzy about the horrible attitude I showed to him despite being my parent's savior.
"..Hina, are you okay?".
With the memories in my head, I couldn't hear the other sound as I was being stuck in my own swirling thoughts. The storm that clouded my mind sucked me in as my sight started to juggle, couldn't focus. My stomach started to churn, and my gastric began to creep up, intending to launch the meal I had eaten earlier.
"Oi, Hina?".
As my tummy started retaliating, I turned my back and ran away from the room, leaving the three in confusion. I ran into the hallway, and my eyes scanned the surroundings to search for a toilet to let out the unpleasant feeling that stuck in my throat.
In the corner of the building, there is the sign of a toilet, and I jump straight inside without having any leeway to check the gender sign.
The inside of the room seems desolate. I shove my head into the toilet in the corner of the room and throw out everything that has been stuck in my throat.
"Bleergh".
I throw out everything that gets stuck in my throat after the grueling feeling that assaulted my nose and mouth. My butt flopped on the cold floor, and a profound sense of regret overwhelmed me. I waited for my feelings to get better and stood up, facing the mirror to wash away the unpleasant juice that stuck in my mouth.
After washing up, I looked toward the flowing water on the basin and thought back to my action. With that stupid aloofness, I had. I scorn someone who saved my parents with life on the lines without knowing his circumstances. Yet despite my actions, Soma still acts kind to me and always puts himself in danger in times I am in danger.
Tears streamed down on my face as intense regret filled my heart. How could I face him after what I had done to him? It was like I was no different from those girls who talked behind my back, calling me a liar. I am such a big fool.
I began to wallow in regret, crying my heart out alone in the corner of the toilet.
"...I am ...sorry".
My words feel empty, and I don't know how to approach Soma. In the despair I was in, Soma's words and actions started to replay in my mind.
"Hina?! Are you alright?".
I heard my mom sound calling me with worry from beside me. But I couldn't care less about my appearance. I don't want to show her my messy face, so I keep gazing down. The memories that replayed were seeped into my clouded thoughts. It brought a faint light that paved the path for me to take.
My swirling thoughts start to dwindle, and my stirred heart begins to calm down. I clenched both hands and teeth and raised my face to see my own self. I steeled my resolve and, despite stifling a sob, opened my mouth.
"...Mom, I need your help".