Chapter 168 - My Choice
Megan's POV
We were holding hands as we walked back towards the main house, and I couldn't stop myself from smiling when I saw my son on the front porch waiting for us. And when Axel saw us coming, he got up from his seat and ran towards us, and I could see the joy on my son's face as he neared us, and I couldn't deny him to have this kind of moment with his father.
And when Ashton took our son into his strong arms and carried him while his other hand was still holding my palm, my heart swelled with happiness, and I know we all deserve to have each other, and this time I am confident I will never have a second thought about accepting him in our lives. And of course, I know it is not only for Axel but also for me. I couldn't deny I am still in love with Ashton, and being with him is my greatest dream.
I could still remember the sleepless nights I spent after we left Astikoz, there was never a day I didn't think about him, and every day I missed his smile, his touches and kisses, and his beautiful voice that would melt my heart, and I could still hear his sweet words on my head. I may be young back then, but right now, I could tell my heart feels the same way; it never gets tired of loving him every day.
"Hey, why are you looking at me that way?" He asked, and I thought Ashton didn't notice I was watching him the entire walk going into the main house.
I giggled and shrugged my shoulders since there was no way I would tell him I was thinking about him even if we were together. I smiled when I saw Alice's car, and I couldn't be happier to see my best friend and tell her she was right about her theory with regards to Aston, and I felt glad he waited for me last night.
We ate breakfast with Alice, and she was smiling the entire time; when Ashton and Axel left us in the dining room, we got up and moved to the porch so I could watch Ashton and Axel playing some games, and when we sat at the patio chairs, my best friend bombarded me with so many questions.
"Hey, are you a showbiz reporter?" I asked, and I couldn't stop myself from laughing.
"I felt glad you are now happy, Meg, and I could see the happiness in your entire face, Megan, and I knew ever since Ashton became your boyfriend eight years ago, he was the only person who can make you this happy, not even the success in your business, and now I felt glad I was able to see that kind of smile once again, Meg." Alice declared.
"I am happy with Axel, Alice," I responded, and she stopped eating her dessert and faced me.
"It is a different level of gratification, Meg, right now, you reach the peak of your happiness, and I could see it in your eyes, and the way your face is glowing tells me you are at peace." She said.
I smiled broadly at Alice, and I couldn't disagree with my best friend. As I watched them running on the field, I couldn't stop the knots on my stomach as I realized Ashton had never changed. He is still hot like the way I saw him in the magazine and Television, and I couldn't stop giggling as I remembered my collection with Ashton on it, and it is one of my deepest secrets.
I had never told Alice about it because it would be a big slap on my face when I kept telling her every time she reminded me of Ashton that I would hate the father of child forever. Still, I couldn't deny there are times I will spend time watching his face on the magazine cover until I will fall asleep.
Those moments were part of the saddest time of my life, and just hearing his name will make my heart bleed, and no matter how I tried to forget about him, the more I miss him. He never let me have peace of mind since we left Astikoz, but nobody knew I was still longing to see him because I masked my genuine emotions for the sake of my pride.
"When are you going to tell Gael about Ashton?" Alice asked, and I took a deep breath before answering her question.
"I plan to tell him everything this coming family day since Axel invited him," I replied.
"How about Ashton, aren't you going to invite him, now that he knew he was Axel's father?" Alice inquired, and I felt my throat dry since I was confused about what to do.
"I don't know Alice, I wanted to invite Ashton, but I am worried about Gael's reaction, and I don't want to make a scene out of it, you know me, I wanted to have a low profile, and having Gael around during school activities will always make me feel uneasy, and if you are going to add Ashton's presence, I don't know what will happen during the family day," I answered, and I could see the beautiful smile on her face.
"It would become a celebrity day, and I am sure everyone will be excited to see Ashton!" Alice responded, and I could see the mischievous smile on her face.
"Don't worry, Megan, I will be there to capture the moment with my newest camera collection." She said, and I shook my head, and I couldn't deny Alice is good with photography, and I always loved her style, and the way she took our pictures during occasions impressed me, and I am proud of my best friend's talent.
"I couldn't believe you would make fun of my chaotic life," I said as I grimaced at her.
"Hey, you know that is not true, Megan; you have a colorful love life, two popular hot guys in the country were crazy about you, and I think you should be happy about it, Megan." She responded.
"I felt flattered with Gael's affection, Al, but knowing I couldn't reciprocate his feelings makes me feel so sad and guilty," I replied, and her smile disappeared on her face.
"Yeah, it would be hard on your part, Megan, and I felt glad I didn't possess your beauty or else I would be having a hard time choosing the right man, but since you already made your choice a long time ago, I just want to tell you, I am proud and happy for you, Megan, for following what your heart wants." She responded, and I smiled at her before turning my head towards Ashton's direction.
And I smiled as I realized Alice was right, I had already made my choice eight years ago, and that is why no matter how I tried to forget him, he will always be the one. And I was smiling as I heard my son's laughter, and he was having so much fun with his father.
Axel and I said goodbye to Ashton, and I wanted to ask him to stay for another night. Still, I didn't want him to think I was so clingy, he kissed my son's forehead, and when he faced me, I could feel the butterflies on my chest when he captured my mouth and kissed me in front of our son; it was a quick kiss, but enough to make me blush, and I was touching my lips as we got back in the house with a beautiful smile on my face.
The following Monday, I arrived in the office so early, and I was shocked and couldn't believe I got so many flowers inside my office; I smiled as I thought of Ashton, but my face fell when I looked at the card tags and realized they all came from Gael, and I dialed his number feeling so guilty for thinking the flowers came from my boyfriend. I felt disappointed when I couldn't reach him.
I was busy the entire day that I overlooked the time, and when I peeked at my watch, it was almost noon. When I glanced at the screen on my phone, I realized I got missed calls from Ashton and Gael, and I know I felt excited that Ashton tried to reach me, and I hate myself why I turned my phone in silent mode.
I could feel the racing on my heart when I saw a text message notification, and knowing it came from Ashton, I could feel my fingers are shaking as I opened my inbox. I could feel I was on cloud nine when he asked me if I had time to have a lunch date with him, and I was typing fast and didn't notice someone got inside my office.
And when I looked up, I found Ashton standing on my door looking so handsome as ever, and I could feel my heart skip a beat. And when he looked around my room, I could see the surprise on his face. I had seen it with my two eyes that Ashton tried to hide the bouquet he was carrying at his back when he saw the flowers all over my office, and I could see the hurt and jealousy on his face when he realized the flowers came from his rival.
I stood up as I locked my gaze with him, and when I was so close to him that I could smell his manly intoxicating scent, I stood up on my toes and kissed him, and I knew my gesture was enough to make him pull me closer to him, and gave me a mind-blowing kiss that made me moan, and my toes curl.