I Will Live As An Actor

I Will Live as an Actor Episode 164

Grand Prize.

The broadcasting station president himself comes out and holds the microphone. He glances at the paper with the grand prize winner written on it and smiles. Then he shouts without hesitation.

“The grand prize winner of the MBS Drama Awards is none other than Jang Young-guk!”

All live broadcast cameras focus on one place. England, dressed in a pure white suit with a spotlight, looked embarrassed.

Even though his name was called, he still couldn’t believe it. If I hadn’t had a camera, I might have slapped myself in the face to find out if it was a dream or not.

‘Am I really the target?’

The influence of [The Secret of King Yeonsan] was enormous. The drama landscape, which was dominated by orthodox historical dramas, was turned upside down to the point where the popular term “fusion historical dramas” was used. Even more so. The highest viewership rating of

46.7%

was also so great that it will remain in the history of the broadcasting station. But I wasn’t sure I would win the grand prize. Even though he was so crazy about acting in his past life, didn’t he stop at the grand prize?

It was none other than the congratulations of my colleagues that awakened my thoughts.

Starting with Cha Hye-jin, who played the role of Jang Nok-su, to Kwak Jeong-woo, who played the role of a bodyguard, and Park Sang-cheol, who played the role of Kim Cheo-seon.

Generous applause and applause pours in, along with a feeling of a push on the shoulder as if telling people to get out.

“Actress Jang Young-guk, who simultaneously played the roles of Yeonsangun Lee Yong and the fictional character Lee Gyeol in The Secret of King Yeonsan, created a fusion historical drama syndrome among the public through his acting as if he were the real Yeonsangun, and played numerous roles hidden behind a pure smile. He is an actor who left a strong impression on the public through the spectrum of his acting skills. “I sincerely congratulate you!”

While receiving the award plaque, the host makes a witty comment.

As I stand in front of the stand microphone and receive the award plaque shining brilliantly in gold, I see my fellow actors and numerous audience members.

All live broadcast cameras are focused on one place.

“I can’t believe I’m standing here. There are a lot of things I want to say, but I won’t give an acceptance speech for myself today. If I were to say this when I was young, it might seem arrogant. He appeared in many works and received much love. “It makes me wonder if I can receive this much love.”

Everyone listens to Britain’s acceptance speech.

“It takes the efforts of many people for one person to see the light. The same goes for this award I receive. I think it is not a result I achieved alone, but thanks to the countless staff members and fellow actors on set who worked hard behind the scenes. “Thanks to them, I was able to stand here and receive so much love.”

It was the mistakes and regrets of my past life. Didn’t he live in his own pride at the time? The reason I worked so hard, earning myself the nickname “madman” for acting, was because I wanted to break the cycle of poverty.

I didn’t know at the time. The fact that success is not something that can be achieved alone.

“I will continue to work hard to become a beloved actor. Thank you to Yeongdo’s family and agency family who are watching the screen right now, the PD, writer, and colleagues who produced The Secret of King Yeonsan, and to the fans who always believe in and love me. finally.”

England, wearing a pure white suit, bowed deeply to the live broadcast camera and spoke.

“I was very happy to be able to be Lee Yung and Lee Gyeol of Yeonsangun last year.”

At the end of the acceptance speeches, this year’s MBS broadcasting station’s grand prize work was broadcast on a large screen.

Lee Gyeol’s image appears on the entire screen.

-Now that a new king has ascended the throne, you too will have to walk a difficult path. As of today, if the point of the court’s sword does not reach you, I will be able to at least save my brother’s face. I can ask you one last favor.

The wind blows across the place of exile.

-Please speak.

There is a close-up of his eyes fluttering in the sea breeze. Even in the face of death, he shows no signs of fear or nervousness. At that moment, the swaying of the sea water stops along with the shining sunlight.

-After I die, cut off a piece of my hair and bury it next to my brother.

Over his collapsing figure, only unfamiliar seagulls spit out sad tunes.

The guard throws away his bloody knife and holds his collapsing body.

His dying gaze manages to smile at the sobbing guard, as if telling him not to be sad.

* * *

What is acting ability? Is it natural talent or effort? Actor Song Jeong-seok felt his heart sink when he saw England giving his grand prize acceptance speech on a TV screen.

There was still a motto in his head like a belief.

-If you meet someone like you in the future, don’t pass by and help them. What’s the big deal about a warm bed and a bowl of rice?

It was a child. The child who said he was a fan and gave him a sumptuous meal and a warm bed while he was playing minor roles.

That child’s good deeds became the foundation for Song Jeong-seok’s acting to this day.

‘Great job, England.’

The actor he knew, Jang Young-guk, was an actor who helped others on set more than any other actor.

As awareness increases and you become famous, you naturally become arrogant. This tendency is especially strong among young actors.

But England was different. Not only did he laugh and chat with the supporting cast and share acting advice without hesitation, but if something was going to happen on set, he volunteered to be the youngest staff member and rolled up his sleeves.

That is why there were no bad rumors about England in broadcasters and Chungmuro. Not only the minor characters who filmed with England, but even the staff all say the same thing.

A genius actor who works harder than anyone else.

Song Jeong-seok, who had encountered British acting in person when he was young, said he recognized the tree that was ripe for growth from its leaves.

I had a feeling that he would become a great actor, but I had no idea that he would become the youngest person to win the grand prize.

Today will be a more monumental day than any other anniversary. Even though it was someone else’s award, his face lit up as if he had received it himself.

Song Jeong-seok shouted as he saw England bowing to the viewers on the TV screen.

“Congratulations!”

At that time

, Yeonsu was looking anxiously into the picture tube.

I knew that in the past, during the drama Youth, the British Prime Minister once fell due to pressure from the broadcasting station’s higher-ups.

I was nervous inside that it might not be the same this time. However, the moment England’s name was called as the grand prize winner, I jumped up without realizing it.

“It’s a surprise.”

Yeonsu’s mother, who was watching the live acting awards together, looks at her daughter with a surprised face.

“Yeonsu, do you like it that much?”

It was a mother asking as she looked at her daughter’s bright eyes. Yeonsu’s eyes were moist and she nodded her head loudly. Even though it wasn’t an award I received, my face looks like someone standing on a podium.

Yeonsu’s mother was happy to see her daughter like that, but she also felt sad for some reason.

Yeonsu’s mother had also seen England in the past. Didn’t you take it upon yourself to become a manager to make your daughter’s dream of becoming an actress come true?

Traveling to filming locations across the country all year round is not an extremely difficult task.

Especially for young children. That’s the essence of being a child actor. If my daughter hadn’t been stubborn and confident about acting, she would have stopped it long ago.

What I encountered then was the England of my childhood.

He was clearly a small child with chestnut-brown hair, but his speech and attitude toward others were as good as those of most adults.

He couldn’t know that his daughter loved England. but.

‘I thought you were my younger brother.’

I could tell just by looking at what the UK thought of training. It would have been nice if it ended with her first love as a child, but seeing her daughter whom she loved so much made her feel confused.

On the one hand, the sight of England on the TV screen was something to be proud of.

The little boy who grew up alone in Yeongdo, taking care of his mother, has now become a dependable man and is holding up the grand prize trophy.

“He grew up very well.”

* * *

“England! “You can have my drink too!”

Cinematographer Kim Deuk-hyung approaches holding a green liquor bottle. I don’t know how many drinks it’s been already. Kim Deuk-hyung is also already very drunk and the tip of his nose is reddish, but the after-party shows no signs of ending.

Starting with the famous producer, writer Choi Eun-sook and all the staff and actors. I had to rent an entire store.

“Drinking together like this reminds me of having a drink at Daepot Restaurant in Yeongdo! That makgeolli really killed it. “England, do you remember!”

“Director, I couldn’t drink at the time, so I only drank cola!”

“Is that true? I always think you look much older than your age. “Have you grown so much already? Well then, let’s go trot together for the first time in a while.”

It is a continuation of the exciting atmosphere. After winning the grand prize, everyone congratulated me as one. The famous producer also smiles brightly and lightly hugs her shoulder.

It was late in the morning when the after-party ended.

“Whoa.”

When I returned to the mansion, my grandfather and uncle greeted me. After receiving congratulatory messages, my uncle stopped me from having a drink with him, so I was finally able to enter the bedroom on this floor.

As I lay down on the bed, I still can’t feel the grand prize trophy in my hand. It made me wonder if all of this was a dream.

“I can’t believe I really won the grand prize.”

It is a sight I could never have imagined even in my past life when I was so crazy about acting.

Laughter came out as if I had lost my mind. And tears flow from my eyes without me knowing.

After lying down like that for a while, holding the golden trophy in my hand, I got up. It was to call my mother.

I called right after receiving the grand prize, but I couldn’t speak properly because I was with people from the merchant association.

-Kook!

I thought she must have been sleeping because it was time, but my mother answered the phone before it even rang several times, as if she was waiting for my call.

My mother and I sobbed silently to each other. It was because we knew each other’s feelings enough that there was no need to say congratulations again.

-Kook-ah’s mother elaborated in a dull

voice, barely able to control the emotions welling up to her chin as she spoke.

-I’m proud of you. There is no better. I really

remember my past life, which ended like a moth flying towards a whitish light.

I tried to live a happy life. As an actor, I put aside my desire to see the end of my acting career. There were times when I wondered if I was on the right path.

But now I knew. That the path I’m taking is right.

How could you not be moved to tears when you hear these words come out of your mother’s mouth saying that there is nothing better?

I really felt like I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep easily today. Only the moonlight shines on me quietly through the window. And

then three years passed.