I Don’t Want This Reincarnation

WARNING: This chapter and upwards may make you discomfort or trigger something. Just keep in mind that this is just fiction. ^^

「He looks like a fool.」

Cheon Sa-yeon’s thought, who was facing Han Yi-gyeol and his gaze, came to mind.

「Still, it wouldn’t be a bad idea to check if he’s useful at least once.」

Cheon Sa-yeon’s black eyes headed towards the broken side table.

「If I coax him well…」

After thinking about it, Cheon Sa-yeon smiled and opened his mouth.

「I saved your life as much as possible, but if you try to die now, I feel a bit sad even for me. Even in the hospital, too.」

「…ah.」

At that moment, Han Yi-gyeol, who remembered who Cheon Sa-yeon was, slowly blinked his eyes. The tears that were hanging from the long eyelashes fell as they moved.

「It seems that you don’t want to live because your sister is dead.」

「……」

「But, shouldn’t you still have to hold the funeral? Looking at the records, it said that there was only oppa left as a family member.」

At the word funeral, Han Yi-gyeol opened his mouth slightly and made a stupid expression. I guess he hadn’t thought of that until now.

Cheon Sa-yeon slowly walked towards Han Yi-gyeol, who was bewildered. Then he stretched out his arm very slowly.

As if approaching a young animal with a lot of hair, the hand carefully reached out and took the shard of the bedside table that Han Yi-gyeol was holding.

* * *

In conclusion, Cheon Sa-yeon’s plan to use Han Yi-gyeol alive was close to failure.

With Cheon Sa-yeon’s help, Han Yi-yeon’s funeral was held safely and Han Yi-gyeol seemed to have a sincere gratitude to Cheon Sa-yeon.

But that was all. Less than a month after the funeral was over, Han Yi-gyeol took advantage of Cheon Sa-yeon’s absence and hanged himself to death.

He did the same no matter how many times he repeated it. Whenever Han Yi-gyeol was alone, even for a brief moment, he tried to commit suicide and most of them were successful.

「Annoying.」

Cheon Sa-yeon thought, clicking his tongue. The more Han Yi-gyeol repeated his death, the more Cheon Sa-yeon’s patience gradually reached its limit.

At this point, I could see that the reason Han Yi-gyeol’s death continued to be seen wasn’t because of the book or my problem, but rather the actual event.

I remembered what Elohim said about Han Yi-gyeol. A body whose soul had been worn out after suffering for a long time.

‘If the pain he has suffered for a long time means repeated suicide…’

「Han Yi-gyeol.」

Cheon Sa-yeon gently stroked Han Yi-gyeol’s cheek, who was sitting there in a mesmerized state. At the intimate touch, Han Yi-gyeol shrugged his shoulders and lifted his head.

「Are you thinking about your sister again?」

「…ah, I’m sorry.」

「No. I’m not telling you not to do it.」

Cheon Sa-yeon, who revised the plan after repeated failures, comforted Han Yi-gyeol affectionately.

「There is no need to forcefully forget it. If you want to cry, you can cry.」

Han Yi-gyeol frowned and made a sad expression as if he had been waiting for the moment to cry.

「If you can’t stand alone, come to our guild.」

「Yes?」

「I’ll be by your side to help.」

As long as he didn’t act according to his will, I couldn’t feel any signs of that in the voices or eyes that comforted Han Yi-gyeol, even though it was cumbersome.

It was so Cheon Sa-yeon. It was so perfect that even I was deceived.

‘Even if he didn’t awake to SS-rank, he would have been enough to live as an actor if he had that acting ability.’

Anyway, I didn’t know what made it all so good. I got a bit annoyed.

For some reason, the more I saw Cheon Sa-yeon comforting Han Yi-gyeol, the worse I felt.

Even if I tried not to do that, I kept comparing Cheon Sa-yeon I had seen with the present Cheon Sa-yeon. The story continued with me, who had become complicated in my heart. Cheon Sa-yeon’s plan worked to some extent this time, Han Yi-gyeol didn’t die and continued to live.

「Rely on me. You are not alone.」

「…… 」

「So, don’t even think about wanting to die.」

It was a scene I had seen in a dream one day. Cheon Sa-yeon and Han Yi-gyeol drinking tea together and talking.

When I first dreamed of this scene, I was embarrassed because it was something that didn’t appear in ‘Abyss’. Now I could feel the tangled threads slowly unravelling.

Cheon Sa-yeon naturally touched the corners of Han Yi-gyeol’s wet eyes as he cried when he remembered his younger sister. Han Yi-gyeol, seeing such Cheon Sa-yeon, smiled strangely.

From that day on, Han Yi-gyeol no longer cried over his sister. Instead, he followed Cheon Sa-yeon all day and accepted whatever he said.

When he saw Cheon Sa-yeon, he laughed so happy that there were no other people in the world, and without him, he got very depressed. Not only that, but he reacted sensitively to Cheon Sa-yeon having a conversation with someone and got angry.

If someone else had acted like that, I would have thought it was love, but seeing how Han Yi-gyeol treated Han Yi-yeon, I couldn’t believe it was love.

Cheon Sa-yeon was a new obsession that Han Yi-gyeol found instead of the dead Han Yi-yeon.

However, Cheon Sa-yeon was different from Han Yi-yeon in many ways. Like Han Yi-yeon, Han Yi-gyeol wanted to lock up Cheon Sa-yeon and wanted him to see only himself, but that was impossible. The difference was getting crazier.

Han Yi-gyeol tried to confirm every move of Cheon Sa-yeon. Even if Cheon Sa-yeon talked to someone or laughed a little, he kept asking who the other person was and what kind of relationship they had.

When the situation turned like this, Cheon Sa-yeon hated Han Yi-gyeol more beyond being annoyed by him.

「This method also failed.」

Cheon Sa-yeon’s thoughts were so cold in front of Han Yi-gyeol, who wept bitterly saying that he loved him.

「It’s a bit annoying, but the situation itself isn’t bad yet, so I’ll have to wait and see. I can’t start over because of just one guy like that.」

Time continued to pass and Han Yi-gyeol’s pathological obsession grew worse. Eventually, he reached the point of wielding his ability towards others.

The victims who were attacked by Han Yi-gyeol varied, including a healer who briefly talked with Cheon Sa-yeon in the hallway, an attendant who briefly entered and left the representative office, and a reporter who was closest to Cheon Sa-yeon during the interview.

When Cheon Sa-yeon, who had taken over all of the follow-ups, finally decided to abandon Han Yi-gyeol, everything went backwards like a rewind.

「Han Yi-gyeol.」

The story of returning to that hospital room was different from before. Cheon Sa-yeon, who came to visit as soon as Han Yi-gyeol opened his eyes, threw away all his friendly attitude and calmly opened his mouth.

「Do you want to meet your brother?」

* * *

Kim Woo-jin entered the representative office. Like the rest of the attendants, Kim Woo-jin, a C-rank wearing a black suit, was very unfamiliar.

「As you said, I brought Han Yi-gyeol.」

「How is it?」

「He was seriously injured, so I handed him over to the healer right away.」

Now, the story proceeded the same as ‘Abyss’. Cheon Sa-yeon took the dead Han Yi-yeon hostage and used Han Yi-gyeol.

Cheon Sa-yeon, who was thinking about abandoning Han Yi-gyeol, changed his mind and tried a new method. His A-rank wind ability was too useful to be swayed by his mere emotions.

Even though he never showed Han Yi-yeon’s face, Han Yi-gyeol believed and followed Cheon Sa-yeon’s words that she was alive. It was a plan that was possible because he knew too well how stubborn Han Yi-gyeol was toward the opponent he was obsessed with.

「And?」

Kim Woo-jin slowly reported what he had seen with a shaky face.

Han Yi-gyeol kidnapped Cha Soo-yeon as Cheon Sa-yeon had told him. However, there was a collision in the process and Cha Soo-yeon was seriously injured.

「I confirmed that he was going to the closed elementary school, but I couldn’t go inside and waited outside. He fell off the rooftop about an hour later.」

Kim Woo-jin, who found Han Yi-gyeol almost dying, called Cheon Sa-yeon and brought him to the guild as ordered. If Cheon Sa-yeon had told him to leave, he probably wouldn’t have taken him.

「Get out.」

Cheon Sa-yeon, who confirmed that Kim Woo-jin had left the representative office, leaned his back deep in the chair.

「It’s worthwhile, but…」

Cheon Sa-yeon muttered and slightly revised the plan he had previously made. Every thought he could think of came through clearly.

「He’s too selfish and cruel. If it’s for his own benefit, he won’t hesitate to kill.」 (제 이익을 위해서라면 살인도 마다하지 않겠지, I’m not sure about the subject)

「I should put a hold on putting him in the guild.」

「Right. Rather than the guild…」

After finishing his troubles, Cheon Sa-yeon began to use Han Yi-gyeol for informal work, as seen in ‘Abyss’.

Han Yi-gyeol’s deeds, which had only been shown in a few simple lines due to Ha Tae-heon’s point of view, could be seen in a little more detail through Cheon Sa-yeon.

Han Yi-gyeol wore black masks… That was, he often clashed with Samael’s minions. He killed them or stole information as ordered by Cheon Sa-yeon.

Cheon Sa-yeon, who was invisible to Ha Tae-heon, continued to fight Samael. Most of them used Han Yi-gyeol, but there were a few times when Cheon Sa-yeon himself moved.

Although it was impossible to accurately grasp the scene because the scene was so fast and short, it was certain that the loss of life was prevented several times. There was no way that Han Yi-gyeol, who was following Cheon Sa-yeon’s commands, couldn’t have felt it.

Around that time, Han Yi-gyeol’s gaze at Cheon Sa-yeon began to change gradually. It seemed that he was bewildered by such a change.

「Yi-yeon must have already died.」

Cheon Sa-yeon didn’t say anything to him, but he somewhat expected to some extent. It was because it had been too long since he hadn’t seen his sister.

Han Yi-gyeol, who lived for the sole purpose of meeting his younger sister again, gradually faced reality. Han Yi-yeon was dead. And Cheon Sa-yeon hid it.

Why? Han Yi-gyeol answered that question in a different direction.

「If I had heard the story right away when Yi-yeon died, I would probably have committed suicide…」

「Is that why Master hid it?」

「Do you think I won’t be able to overcome the sadness of losing my sister?」

Han Yi-gyeol, who lost his rational judgment, began to think according to his own convenience. Then he began to smile with a strange smile again.

Watching that, I sighed.

Cheon Sa-yeon, who had already experienced Han Yi-gyeol’s changed attitude, noticed immediately. But before he changed his plans, Han Yi-gyeol again caused a similar problem.

From excessive obsession and meddling Cheon Sa-yeon’s affairs to aggressive jealousy towards those who had even the slightest involved with him.

「I’m sick and really tired of it.」

Han Yi-gyeol attacked a woman who came to work from the guild management headquarters. Cheon Sa-yeon, who checked the blood-stained drawing-room, thought with a dry tone.

「If it continues to fail like this, then should I not save him?」

Han Yi-gyeol began to cry as he sat down on the floor, covered in the woman’s blood. Cheon Sa-yeon looked down at Han Yi-gyeol pathetically with his back to the moonlight coming through the window.

「I, I just… I love Master, because I love you…」

「Do you love me?」

Han Yi-gyeol nodded his head quickly. There was desperation in his eyes.

「Well.」

「…… 」

「Do you really think so?」

「Th, that… I didn’t do that on purpose, I…」

「This is not love, Han Yi-gyeol.」

「Master…」

「You just needed an object to be obsessed with on behalf of your sister.」

Cheon Sa-yeon abandoned Han Yi-gyeol and left the drawing-room. Han Yi-gyeol, who had been sitting for a long time with a blank face, soon muttered with poisonous eyes.

「Cheon Sa-yeon…」