Debut or Die

If you can’t debut, you’ll die of a disease.

The search for episode 576 proceeded quickly.

-Has confirmed! Let’s move down 2 pitches from where we are.

– Possibility of falling along the movement line of the castaway on the southeast slab side… … .

However, no matter how narrow the search range was, it was a mountain at night. There is a limit to the search speed.

… Especially if the current state of the castaway cannot be predicted.

-1 Team 1 Team Move to the traverse section.

Sounds going through the radio. The sounds of running, breathless voices and notifications pounded my ears dully through the phone.

It was after 2 hours in a hellish taxi.

“… … .”

Now I am getting out of the taxi and boarding the rescue vehicle in front of the mountain.

It was natural to go directly into the mountains, but it was not allowed. Is there anything to increase the number of survivors to two this night?

As much as possible, while answering the occasional question… it’s waiting

It’s just waiting endlessly.

continue.

… If I say that I’m glad I can wait for you to come back, I won’t be able to refute it.

“Isn’t your family cold?”

“it’s okay.”

I could feel the eyes glancing at me.

Of course, it’s not because it looks cold.

‘I must have recognized it.’

I did not underestimate the popularity of Testa Park Moondae.

Moreover, it is the same even if you do not recognize Park Moon-dae.

It was because I was running with a piece of padding on my stage costume.

Looking at my appearance now, this person would wonder what the hell he was doing.

Sailors.

Sometimes, the sign of attention from those around you stings your skin.

I thought about it.

‘It’s worth it.’

For these people, seeing the family of a person in distress is a daily routine, and isn’t it an event for a celebrity to appear there?

‘Just not pretending to know is professionalism.’

So,

“I’m… Are you Ryu Kun-woo’s older brother?”

“… … .”

… It was only natural to hear such a question.

“We joke around and call each other hyung… It was. He is a close brother like family.”

“iced coffee… .”

Despite this poor explanation, I nod my head at first. You probably think that a famous idol didn’t intentionally impersonate a family member.

“… … .”

I could never have imagined that I would benefit from having my face known.

‘You’re not really family anyway, are you? Why are you here?’

‘Anyway, it’s good.’

but… My brain can’t stand it if I don’t even think about it from time to time.

Because

‘there is no news yet!’

two hours. It’s already been two hours since not even the slightest trace of the big moon appeared!

I clasped my hand.

My head was terribly tight.

‘Did I narrow the scope of the search for no reason?’

What if the big moon was injured and stuck somewhere else, and I missed the rescue opportunity because I was talking about bullshit for no reason?

Where the hell is the guarantee that I won’t be wrong, and the guarantee that I’ll be helpful… .

‘shut up.’

At times, he tries to fall into a panic. It’s useless.

I took a deep breath. A cold sweat broke out, but I didn’t bother to wipe it off with my hands.

And calmly asked the rescuers waiting to be contacted from the vehicle.

“Perhaps, how far has the search progressed within the range I mentioned earlier?”

“Now, as long as… You can think of it as about half.”

It wasn’t an exact figure.

But looking at his attitude, he’s not lying.

‘And of course, I’ll start looking for the missing person first… .’

It is a story that there was no big moon in the movement of ‘the missing Ryu Gun-woo would have moved like this’ predicted by rescue experts.

that it did not move in general.

It also meant that the line of movement deviated from the predictions of these people, who saw a high possibility that Ryu Kun-woo was a suicide attempter.

that… Rather, it’s not a bad sign.

‘good.’

I pressed my knuckles.

The place searched for 2 hours was half or less.

Even if we set the minimum number of places to search in the future, after two more hours passed, it was well past 9:00 p.m.

The temperature has long since fallen below minus 5 degrees, and if you’ve been in the mountains since yesterday, you’ll be hit twice by freezing.

So, it would be fortunate if he was within my narrowed search range, but if not… It’s the worst.

Then even now, since I made a mistake, I had to either beg for another place to be searched or hit my head.

“… … .”

I chewed the inside of my mouth.

If only he had a smartphone.

‘Please, I want to ask what you’re thinking.’

No, this would never have happened in the first place. If only there was a system and we could only chat through pop-ups… … .

‘no.’

Talking about missing situations like X doesn’t make it any better.

You can do it now.

There will be clues in what he has said and done so far.

Let’s think.

Of all the conversations I had with him, or the facts I knew about him.

The most vivid and the best way to know the guy’s true intentions… .

“… … .”

‘there is.’

I looked up.

I have personally experienced the idea of a big moon.

When Keundal was originally Bakmundae.

The guy who was watching the video on my fancam account showed me how he came to want to die, the situation and emotions leading up to entering that old motel… thing.

‘Compensation for the first abnormal state.’

I still remember vividly.

– Tired of living.

the guy’s thoughts.

“… … .”

I opened my mouth slowly.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“yes?”

“You’re looking for a place where you can see the beach from Manisan right now, right?”

As if saying so, the rescuer nodded slightly.

“Is there a place you looked at first among them?”

The agent seemed a bit conflicted, but soon opened his mouth.

“… It’s below the rock topline. Usually, there are parts where a lot of people in distress are found.”

and.

“Originally, access is prohibited, but there are people who recklessly go upstairs to go to a place with a good view of the beach. If you stumble and fall there, there are points where it is difficult to get out of because you get injured.”

“… … yes.”

“I’ve been skimming all the way, focusing on that.” A place where you ca

n’t step out and become isolated or

voluntarily escape.

It was a reasonable reasoning and search.

But that’s it.

“Could you take a look at a location where you can come down alone?”

I knew how depressed he was.

– Isn’t it enough to stop living?

– But I didn’t really want to die.

It’s not that I don’t want to die, but that kind of depression that I don’t even want to move.

If he really wanted to die, he would have chosen another way.

because.

-It was so cold that I couldn’t bear to fall into the water or climb the mountain. Because I felt like giving up halfway through.

Climbing the mountain was the way he himself excluded it.

That’s why he chose the motel.

‘So I wouldn’t have wanted to die.’

don’t die on purpose

But he is tired and lethargic, so he doesn’t move.

if that’s the case.

“It is a location where you can move around alone with a good view of the beach. … Please just once.”

“… … .”

He could go somewhere else, but he just stays still.

‘It’s a position where I can see my parents alone without being disturbed.’

If this didn’t work, I’d have to admit I didn’t know X about the big moon and withdraw all my comments.

And I had to ask for a quick look at the other mountains.

But before that… These people should have listened to me.

‘please.’

If you ask why, it was a proposal that is difficult to put together reasonable words. I was gritting my teeth and concocting excuses in anticipation of being rejected.

at that time.

The rescuers seemed to be thinking about it, but eventually heard the radio.

“wait a minute.”

“… … !”

okay… all.

I was about to clench my hands, but I held it in.

… … I was lucky because I was a celebrity. really.

And the painful time flows again.

‘X foot… please.’

My arms and legs trembled with nervousness, anxiety, anticipation, and fear.

I sat still in my seat, restraining the thoughts that led me to arbitrarily negative logic.

How long has it been such a long wait?

suddenly.

I only noticed that the walkie-talkies here were ringing fast.

-here… .

-support! wish to support.

– Check location… … .

Alarm sound Footsteps Amid the mingling of various voices, I found a different word than before.

the words you’ve been waiting for

– I found it!

After a while.

I saw a helicopter descending from the bottom of the mountain.

“be careful!”

The elongated vehicle caught under the helicopter gently touches the floor and the strap is detached stably.

And there was a person who staggered and was supported and raised up in it.

Gunwoo Ryu.

It was a big month.

The guy was moving.

– Prepare for transfer to the hospital… .

“… … .”

In the middle of the radio conversation, the guy looked at the floor with a blank face in white, then raised his head.

And our eyes met.

“… … brother.”

Without saying a word, I ran over and hugged him tightly.

I realized that.

I’m not late.

* * *

“Eat.”

Park Moon-dae, or Keun-dal, looked at the food in front of him.

Haejangguk is a soup dish that produces hot steam.

like sometime

A 20-year-old who tried to take sleeping pills to die in a motel but failed and woke up again and sat in a daze in front of the building.

The person who bought me food without saying anything.

At that time, the person sat across from the table of the soup restaurant that I entered on a whim, with a tired expression, and silently cooked a spoonful of rice.

just like now

“… … .”

Even if this is a hospital and their appearances are reversed… It felt like nothing had changed.

Everything from warm indifference to hot food that doesn’t ask anything.

“The basic examination is over… It is said that there is nothing wrong except for light frostbite. There were hardly any signs of dehydration. Did you bring water?”

“… … yes.”

“Good job.”

There was nothing else to say.

The big moon, who had been quietly putting a spoon into the hangover soup, lowered his head.

Crying rose up to his throat even from his dry heart, but he swallowed it.

‘no.’

It was because he knew that he had caused too much trouble to his brother.

He opened his dry mouth to explain the situation even a little to the opponent who must have been embarrassed and absurd.

“on purpose… I didn’t mean to get in trouble.”

“… … .”

“… I was going to go see my parents, but I found a place where I could see myself quietly… … Seeing as there is, too much time has passed.”

“okay.”

Park Mun-dae did not point out that Ryu Kun-woo had been absent from work for five days without notice and how he could ‘just’ sit on the mountain for a day in that cold winter.

He didn’t even ask me what the hell he was thinking to do such a crazy thing.

I just nodded.

Maybe that’s why Keundal made a noise that he didn’t even think of.

“The fact that I went to Sokcho… In fact, I was sitting on the beach all the time.”

“huh.”

“Then, since it’s the same beach, I wanted to see my parents… Somehow I’m out of energy.”

Did I think of this?

Stories that made me question myself came pouring out.

The emptiness that I didn’t say because I didn’t want to worry or bother me unnecessarily came out with a tuk-tuk sentence.

“… So I tried to make a hobby, but I couldn’t think of anything… … there was just Then I thought about going to the mountain.”

His older brother quietly listened to the words and only confirmed that the big moon was eating.

And he answered by pouring warm water.

“Good job.”

The big moon grabbed the spoon tightly against something that suddenly jumped up.

“You told me to live as Ryu Gun-woo.”

“… … .”

My brother nodded slightly.

so i finally said

“But can’t I just live with a big moon… … .”

“… … .”

“I don’t know what to do, and I don’t really know… I don’t even know what I want to do. Just cheer for Testa and the status window… I don’t have it, but there are other things that are helpful for hyung’s activities.”

“Yes.”

“… !”

The big moon raised its eyes.

The older brother swallowed a spoonful of rice and answered calmly.

“But let’s do the opposite this time.”

“yes?”

“This time, let’s focus on you instead of me.”

“… … .”

“I don’t know what to do or want to do… If you don’t know, we can look for it together. You also found a way to debut with me.”

“But”

“But?”

“My brother is busy… .”

“We agreed to take a day or two off a week to improve Testa’s work-life balance.”

“Is that so?”

“uh. Oh, you stopped.”

“ah!”

Big moon hurriedly moved the spoon again.

The conversation was smooth and nonchalant, and somehow, strength returned to my body.

The broth was still hot and spicy.

“Of course, it’s okay to talk about Testa. ask anytime I also have a few questions to ask you about Testa.”

“yes!”

I have work to do.

Those words somehow gave me more energy. Big moon moved his hand more militantly.

And as my stomach filled up, I couldn’t help but talk about something more common sense.

“Brother really… You were confused this time. really sorry. For worrying and bothering me… .”

“Because it’s okay. Oh, I paid a separate reward to the members, so don’t worry about that.”

“… … .”

The big moon almost opened its mouth.

I hadn’t even thought about it until now.

“I’m sorry. It caused a lot of trouble!”

“You weren’t that angry. Because the rescue was successful for now.”

“ah… .”

From the way he spoke, he could tell that the other person was very concerned about his own safety.

How many hours did you wait until you were rescued?

‘… … .’

Keundal looked at the other person’s complexion with the feeling of guilt and apology that pierced his chest, and the rising gratitude.

She looks haggard and tired because of the disheveled look, but maybe it’s because of the makeup, it doesn’t stand out that much. It was really like an idol.

Then I realized.

‘… … uh?’

Fully set head and face.

and… A uniform with colorful accessories visible under the padding.

It was a stage costume.

“… … .”

Testa’s stage.

The big moon opened his mouth as he felt a chill run down his spine.

“Brother today… … What day is it?”

There was no answer, but he had already finished his calculations.

He had been missing for five days, starting with himself sitting on the porch in a daze on his way to work on Tuesday.

Then, today, after adding the date… … It’s Saturday.

And this Saturday.

“The Testa Concert… … It is.”

He hurriedly raised his head.

The current time came into my clear vision as if I had been hit by cold water.

10 o’clock at night.

It’s time for the concert to end.

“… … .”

“brother?”

The older brother on the other side said nothing.