Debut or Die

for episode 527

was released.

Kim Rae-bin, who summoned the members to the living room, solemnly stood in front of them as if preparing for the holiday season.

Somehow, Park Moon-dae looked at him, feeling like a parent receiving school report cards or a family member.

‘That’s great.’

Kim Rae-bin was exhausted from not sleeping properly for the past few weeks.

Park Moon-dae indifferently opened his mouth.

“… Shall we go to sleep and talk?”

“It’s okay if you suggested it out of consideration for me. Let’s start by talking about what I have to say.”

Kim Rae-bin answered very firmly, then closed his eyes and shouted.

“First of all, I’m sorry.”

“… ??”

‘Are you saying you’re sorry for making the trailer so well and appearing alone?’

‘… I’ve been able to make it like this for a while, but I’m sorry I hid my skills?’

An absurd interpretation passed through the members’ heads, but at the same time, everyone discarded that interpretation.

And Kim Rae-bin slowly explained to the members who decided to smile kindly.

“The teaser reflected a lot of my personal impressions.”

know.

“However, this teaser is a representative work introducing Testa’s new album. It was not my personal work.”

The members realized what Kim Rae-bin wanted to say.

-It’s our album, but I’m sorry for containing my own story!

“I made a connection point with the album. However, I could not systematically report what symbols and metaphors I used in the process of making my work.”

Kim Rae-bin swallowed and said firmly.

“I felt compelled to apologize for that… .”

And he slightly bowed his head.

Without even a moment of silence, the words came crashing in.

“Are you an idiot Kim Raebin? Sit quickly!”

“… ?!”

When he came to his senses, he was sitting on the living room rug with his back on the sofa.

“Rabin has been thinking too much~”

“Sure. Well made.”

A warm bruise followed without criticism. Kim Rae-bin reflexively accepted the honey tea offered by Bae Se-jin with a blunt face.

The person sitting on the sofa patted his back slowly.

It was Park Moon-dae.

“Even if you don’t explain in detail, I can tell that the teaser and the album are well connected. Because it’s an album we made together.”

he spoke boldly.

“From the beginning, we monitored and gave feedback on all the continuations and progress you made. you know?”

“… yes.”

“okay. Then, don’t be fooled by the confirmation and proceeding.”

He seemed a bit conflicted, then added:

“… The number of views came out well, so enjoy it.”

Park Moon-dae was smiling faintly as he said that.

Kim Rae-bin nodded his head, holding back his eyes from blushing.

“yes.”

But there was a secret.

In fact, he vaguely expected and expected the members to react like this.

It is a fact that I have learned through crying and laughing together over the past few years that I am not a team member to criticize or criticize.

‘I said it even though I knew it.’

Because I wanted to get this reaction.

Steer’s flood of memories left an almost shockingly deep mark, and he was extremely hypersensitive to situations that might bring them back.

to criticism and condemnation.

No matter what he did, Kim Rae-bin needed a counterexample in order to break the chain of finding the justification for criticism and coming up with logic.

I wanted to make sure that that doesn’t happen in reality.

“great job. Well done Rabin.”

And the attempt turned out to be very successful, and Kim Rae-bin was finally able to escape the premonition that had been holding him for the past few weeks.

My eyes were hot and my heart was light.

He squeezed the honey tea.

“Ravina, I like the teaser… ?”

“Honestly, I think the person who made it would have been cool to see it in person~ How do you feel!”

“that… … .”

Now, without worrying anymore, Kim Rae-bin was able to accept the question innocently and come up with an answer after pondering it.

“… I was relieved. It is because I was able to organize the images while embodying the images I felt.”

Rather than the teaser itself, it was the feeling I felt while making that teaser.

He had already made his debut as a testa and experienced numerous successes. So rationally, he was able to refute his self-abuse during his steer days with counterexamples.

However, he could understand why he accepted such vicious and sophistical logic during his days at Steer.

let your mind go numb.

because they were both the same person.

“It’s embarrassing… Actually, this teaser is a song I made to comfort myself.”

The surroundings became slightly quiet.

Rabin Kim slightly lowered his head.

“Since this is not a story that has been disclosed to the public, I thought it might cause a problem with its popularity in that it is somewhat ambiguous and can be interpreted in various ways… .”

“Nope!”

The closing phrase ‘I tried to complement it as much as possible’ was cut off.

“You idiot, it’s funny because all the interpretations are different! So cool. [That teaser was literally cool!]”

Kim Rae-bin looked at Cha Yu-jin with a bewildered face.

Hearing that Cha Yoo-jin is an idiot, I can’t feel bad!

and… .

‘Are you serious?’

What am I trying to say? It’s funnier because there’s no definitive answer?

As if answering that thought, Park Moon-dae continued as if to supplement Cha Yu-jin’s words.

“okay. People would have interpreted and understood what they experienced as they knew.”

Moondae Park nodded, swallowing in good conscience the rumors that that would have gone viral.

“… And millions of people like that have seen the teaser. Among them, there must be people who understood the teaser the way you thought.”

Those words echoed somewhere.

Kim Rae-bin naturally imagined the scene briefly.

Someone who suffers from accusations and criticism.

The scene where that person accidentally sees a teaser he made and finds a hidden story and feels sympathy and comfort.

The scene that I think is my story.

He immediately nodded, slightly choking.

“yes… … .”

It was a feeling he would not have felt if he had reassembled his terrifying work in such a way that the public could fully understand it.

Kim Rae-bin made a new commitment.

– Take note, but don’t be swayed.

It felt like my mind was clear!

He answered with a clear mind.

“thank you!”

“what.”

Lee Se-jin smiled and sorted out the situation.

“Now that we have such a great trailer for our album, how about a toast?”

“Uh ok… !”

The members nodded and poured the drinks they wanted, from cold water to barnacles, creating an atmosphere.

Bae Se-jin started talking about the references to ‘Alice in Wonderland’ and ‘Alice in the Looking Glass’ that he found in the teaser, and Lee Se-jin introduced a WeTube video interpreted by a fan.

Kim Rae-bin took all of this seriously but happily.

It was the same routine as any other I’ve been through for years.

‘good night.’

In the gap, Kim Rae-bin regained a deep sense of stability.

In the past few weeks, he has succeeded in sublimating overflowing pain into stimulating inspiration.

Although the stimulation gave an opportunity for creation, it was not possible to extract creative work without resting in the constant stimulation. You will be exhausted and exhausted before then.

Periods of stability and recovery are also necessary for:

Kim Rae-bin has just had such a mental break.

‘Thank… .’

He let go of his emotions and finally smiled at ease.

And fainted.

“… ?! Lavin??”

“Ooooooh Raebin Kim!”

The tension was relaxed and the aftereffects of the all-nighter had arrived.

I can say it was a blissful sleepover.

“Oh… .”

“Cha Yoo-jin. The bridge is yours. I will raise my head.”

“Moondaemundae, you should take a break too.”

Kim Rae-bin, who immediately fell asleep, was carried to bed by the members who got up in a hurry.

It was the point where only 10 days were left until the release of the new album.

“… … .”

And at this point, Park Moon-dae raised one of Kim Rae-bin’s arms and made a decision.

* * *

Kim Rae-bin was submerged in a peaceful subconscious.

I dream vague dreams in a warm and good mood. It would be great if I fell asleep like this and woke up after a while I hope that those thoughts do not even become verbalized and resonate softly and pleasantly in my head… .

A low voice sounded like pouring cold water.

“Are you awake?”

grandma!

Kim Rae-bin, who opened his eyes while crying out for his guardian, met Park Moon-dae, who was making a sad expression.

The older brother, whose expression seemed to fit the nickname of Tibetan fox, nodded at him and stood up.

‘uh… ?’

Looking back, he was dressed in street clothes with a wool fleece.

“Where are you going… ?”

“uh. to the shop. The publicity WiTube channel was caught.”

Come to think of it, a comeback is just around the corner!

Kim Rae-bin came to his senses this time and hurriedly followed him to see him off.

‘What the hell am I… When did you fall asleep??’

It felt like my eyes were spinning!

However, in an instant, the three older brothers, standing in the front door, got ready, smiled, waved, and left.

They are Park Moon-dae, Seon Ah-hyun, and Lee Se-jin.

They were three people of the same age who were good to talk about relationships on the air.

“I’ll go… !”

“I will promote the album properly and come back~”

Tak.

The front door closed lightly.

And Kim Rae-bin remained at the entrance in a daze.

“… … .”

who… Are you saying you should ask about this situation?

It was then.

Tuk-tuk.

Someone tapped his shoulder. Kim Rae-bin quickly turned his head.

Bae Se-jin had a serious face.

“Hmm, let’s eat.”

“yes… … .”

Kim Rae-bin, who responded coldly, unconsciously followed him and headed to the table.

Surprisingly, the food was already served there.

‘Chicken soup… … .’

A white soup dish was served on a plate.

And there was only one person on this team making it.

‘Cha Yoo-jin!’

Yes.

However, this time, Cha Yoo-jin made a traditional soup using her mother’s recipe instead of making it like chicken stir-fried soup by adding red pepper paste.

“Bon appétit.”

Cha Yoo-jin shrugged and spat out an idiom equivalent to ‘I’ll eat well’ and sat down at the table. Kim Rae-bin took a spoonful of soup and took it to his mouth, forgetting to ask questions because of his naturalness.

Something more familiar than before… .

‘ah.’

Kim Rae-bin realized.

It was a taste I ate occasionally when I was steer.

‘Come to think of it, Cha Yoo-jin often cooked… .’

Unlike now, when we have a company that takes care of people and even members who are good at cooking, back then, we had to order delivery or take turns cooking.

Raebin Kim looked around without realizing it because of the hazy memories that suddenly came to mind.

Only the members who were together during the steer were sitting at this table.

Coincidentally.

“it is delicious? Do you remember what you ate before?”

Even Cha Yu-jin openly asked that.

A brief moment of silence passed.

And Sejin Bae carefully opened his mouth first.

“… I don’t remember ever eating it. no that… Although I tried what you made for me last time you lost your memory.”

“Sure. Because Eugene started cooking a year after his debut.”

after you quit

Liu Cheng-wu did not bother to add the word, but everyone understood the meaning behind it.

Cha Yujin shrugged and opened her mouth.

“Oh… I have a lot of memories of my brother. Then do you remember not eating my food and throwing it away?”

I don’t think that’s something to be said lightly!

Even Kim Rae-bin thought about it, but couldn’t bring it up in this atmosphere that reminded me of the time of Steer somewhere.

Back then, I could never answer a question at the dinner table!

“Don’t you remember? Christmas Eve.”

“… … .”

Liu Qingyu did not answer for a moment.

He hesitated, as if he was conflicted within, but soon replied calmly.

“It wasn’t me who threw it away.”

“What?!”

“It must have been Min Jung-hoon.”

Ryu Cheng-wu gave a specific name. It was a member of Mo Steer who was rumored to be dating.

Cha Yoo-jin almost hit the table with a spoon.

“Holy sh… Then why didn’t you say it was a misunderstanding?”

“Because I don’t have to.”

Liu Chengwu seemed to be in conflict as to whether or not to speak up again, but soon replied in a rather insensitive tone.

“I thought you guys would fight, so I sorted it out with what I did. I thought it would be easier to control that way. Because you heard me.”

“… … .”

Soon, Cha Yu-jin sighed lowly.

“OK. [This is typical “steer leader” behavior. It’s my fault for asking.]”

Cha Yu-jin responded quite cynically, but even a person who didn’t speak English could tell from the tone that there was no malice in that.

So, no tension was created. Instead, the conversation ended with Liu Cheng-wu smiling faintly.

A slightly embarrassing yet gentle atmosphere that could be reconciled between people whose misunderstanding had been resolved passed by.

And again, wordless spooning continued.

‘hmm.’

Kim Rae-bin had an unexpected feeling.

They are already sitting around talking about the old past and uncomfortable times.

In fact, it wouldn’t be strange even if it was uncomfortable, but I even felt a little nostalgic about this atmosphere.

‘Why?’

The reason was simple.

Even in very difficult and difficult times, when a good ending was reached, there was always something to look back on and remember.

Especially if there are people who have endured that period together.

“How much pepper did you sprinkle?”

“If you are not sick, you can eat it. is this right!”

They silently emptied the soup.

I sorted out the past that I forgot and then remembered.

Ready to go again.

* * *

Same time.

Moondae Park, who successfully finished filming the publicity mukbang entertainment WeTube, received a text message.

It was very unexpected news.

-VTIC Cheong Ryeo Senior: Junior, let’s meet once within three days.

While thinking things like ‘Crazy man, I’m making a comeback’, Park Moon-dae was still conscious of the filming location and the people around him, so he thought of sending a polite, non-trivial text message.

-VTIC Senior Shin Cheong-ryeo: Because I enlisted in four days ^^

“… ?? … … !!”

VTIC. Four days until the last leader, Chung-ryeol, enlists.