Debut or Die

If you can’t debut, you’ll die of illness Episode 538

The practice notes of Noah, the leader of Eter.

It was made by analyzing his senior’s music video several times while he split his sleeping time.

-I’ve been distributing them so that they match as much as possible according to the positions of our members.

-As expected, brother!

The memories of being proud among the members who admired him for being great were clear.

And sincere praise from the staff at the mid-term evaluation, and even the expression of the people at the company who became brighter after the pre-release video.

Thanks to the good feedback, up to the few days I spent practicing without worrying.

However, a few days later, the main broadcaster contest stage.

[Waah Aak!]

[Did you just see?]

Testa turned over all the choreography and arrangements shown during the intermediate evaluation and brought a strong stage.

As if he had sniped Ether.

And the leader of Ether was as shocked as the satisfaction and confidence he felt while performing on stage right before.

For the next few days, only afterimages of that stage, regret, resentment, and sadness were swirling in my head.

I managed to manage my schedule, but when the camera wasn’t rolling, I forgot all the trivial things that I usually take care of.

Among them… There were also those practice notes.

It had already served its purpose and was no longer needed.

“… … .”

And now it was in the hands of a senior Testa member who was the party to the analysis.

While asking himself, ‘Isn’t this the Ether member’s?

A situation I never imagined.

It felt like my blood was running cold.

‘What should I do?’

Did you look inside the note? No, there was nothing to ask. You will definitely see it. After confirming the contents, they concluded that it belonged to Ether.

My hair went white.

Noir desperately tried to think of something, but before that, the words came out of her mouth reflexively.

“I am… I don’t know.”

I was scared.

I couldn’t come up with a way to deal with it, so I started denying it out of nervousness.

“I don’t think it’s our member notes.”

“… … .”

Opponent Seon Ah-hyun did not answer. I just calmly held my notebook and stared at it.

And Noir realized that she had said something out of the ordinary.

It’s not ether!

Didn’t that senior give me a reason to casually show that notebook to others and ask, “Is it yours?”

And if someone else sees… therefore.

‘ah… … .’

A cold sweat ran down my back.

Unbelievable that this had suddenly happened, he stood there frozen.

There was no sense of reality.

‘Is it a nightmare?’

It was time to think so.

“is it so… . Then could you possibly find the owner? On our side… It seems like there is no owner.”

Noah stopped breathing for a moment.

At the sound that could doubt his ears, he wondered if he had heard it wrong.

“Here you go.”

However, Seon Ah-hyun stretched out a hand and held out a note to herself.

“… … .”

There was no need to present the item to a junior who said, ‘I don’t know’ or ‘It’s not ours’ to find the owner.

Noah knew it instinctively.

‘I know.’

The fact that this note is yours.

that you are lying.

It was an action that could not have been done if Seon Ah-hyun was not convinced.

However, he couldn’t miss this opportunity like a rope that came down from the sky, so he hurriedly nodded his head and stretched out his hands.

“yes… !”

It was only at the moment when I grabbed the note and accepted it that the dizzying fear faded and a sense of relief permeated.

‘ah.’

He gripped the notebook tightly. My heart slowed as if it had been ten years.

Testa Seon Ah-hyun didn’t say anything even while watching it.

He just nodded slightly with a calm expression, and soon turned around and walked down the hallway with a drink in hand.

“… … .”

Only then did the leader of Ether begin to feel emotions and thoughts other than relief.

It was just shame.

About how you would appear to others… … .

‘Oh no.’

He abruptly stopped thinking.

This was all due to the peculiarities of the situation.

Isn’t it natural for idols to work hard to analyze the performance of competitors and seniors?

‘That’s right, of course… The situation is strange.’

It was because the staff of Ether were in trouble with gossip and controversies about keeping Testa in check.

At this time, if Testa suddenly sees Ether’s notes in which they studied their gestures, they are embarrassed that they might misunderstand them.

‘I didn’t deliberately only study Testa’s gestures.’

I didn’t have time, so I quickly analyzed the idols who were my current competitors. They were just trying to work hard, Ether thought.

It wasn’t that I was trying to embarrass myself.

However, in the situation, it could look that way to the other person, so I was embarrassed like this.

because… … .

-Because Testa senior doesn’t know my situation.

“… … .”

However, at that moment, the leader of Ether realized a sense of incongruity in the completed sentence.

Senior Testa wasn’t the only one who didn’t know about his situation.

‘… It must have looked that way to anyone.’

If you show the note to anyone who isn’t affiliated with Ether, you’ll get a similar reaction.

‘Iter persistently followed Testa’s gesture’… Called.

Because that is the result.

‘The exception is me.’

He was only looking at himself generously.

Because I know all my regrets and circumstances.

‘Because it’s my job… .’

The moment I realized that, it felt like a cold air rushed through my head, as if a protective barrier had been broken.

“… … .”

With trembling hands, Noah put her notebook into her bosom as if to cover it.

It felt like waking up from a dream.

‘I see.’

Everyone has circumstances.

However, since I know all about my situation, I only show a particularly warm attitude towards myself.

And it’s usually called self-justification.

If you remove this self-justification and think that everything is someone else’s business… .

‘… It was a shame.’

Also, I would have thought that a senior who did not express himself and treated him politely to a junior who copied him without permission was a much better person.

“… … .”

He thought of Seon Ah-hyun, who silently handed over the notebook to him, and Se-jin Lee, who gently responded to his ulterior motives.

In fact, in all of that, he realized that he wanted to find evidence that his predecessors were bad people.

‘Because it makes me feel better… .’

It’s comfortable for me that I and the people who take care of me are good people and the people who get in my way are bad people.

It’s still hard, but it’s so hard to blame my company for not being able to do anything about it.

It was unconsciously ignored.

“… … .”

The leader of Ether slowly left the corridor and started to return to the waiting room.

My head was cold enough.

and that day.

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3.1. Testa Reference Controversy (7)

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After the filming was over, he used a laptop secretly brought into the dorm to evaluate the case of Eter for the first time by the public. I started looking for accidents.

I tried not to look for indiscreet profanity.

However, just looking at the articles that people have organized has already given me a big psychological shock.

-… A variety of materials came out, including composition, props, and choreography, and the opinion that ‘cases only come from Testa as a reference’ (9) spread around the entertainment community… … .

“… … .”

From the debut album, if you are going through the photo data that you have already imitated Testa, you will have tears in your nose.

I kind of wanted to run away.

‘Maybe these people got it wrong?’

However, he tried to dispel that thought and tried to view the data as objectively as possible.

However, the more this happened, the more it seemed that Ether was the wrong group from the beginning of the planning stage.

‘Is that so?’

As an idol, he felt like everything was wrong, so he even felt the urge to retire.

Then I found it.

It was data captured from a fan’s SNS post.

– It seems that Ether rarely participates in producing, but this problem needs to be fixed at the level of the company’s planning team

.

‘ah.’

Fans also did not think of the company and themselves on the same line.

There was a title there.

-Companies and idols are not the same.

“… … .”

He wiped away his tears and concluded.

First of all, let’s reflect on our mistakes and correct them.

And the company’s faults didn’t require me to defend or get overly obsessed with them.

It was okay to have opposing opinions.

‘Because I’m not the company.’

My heart felt colder.

widely.

He closed the laptop after finishing the egosearch filled with growing pains.

And I remembered the announcement of the contest results that I filmed today.

-1st place… This is Testa!

-and!

Applause and happiness had made Testa’s seat an uproar.

And Ether finished third.

It didn’t buy sympathy because it didn’t fail, and it wasn’t a ranking that was great enough to attract attention.

The company failed to meet expectations and the group failed to achieve its goals.

Nothing turned out the way we wanted… .

However, Noah was no longer unfair.

* * *

-Senior, thank you for kind words until the end even though I have caused a lot of trouble. If I can see you next time, I want to meet you as a more mature person… .

“Is this from Ether?”

“Yes.”

Sun Ah-hyun nodded. For reference, what this guy gave me was not a KakaoTalk message or a message, but a handwritten note.

They probably chose this method because they weren’t close enough to exchange numbers. Even though I asked the manager to let me know, the relationship between the staff is so bad.

‘hmm.’

I skimmed through the text he sent again.

To sum it up, it would be an apology and an oath to prevent a recurrence.

“It was given to me, but in fact… I think I gave it to our group.”

“okay?”

I couldn’t agree much, but Seon Ah-hyun nodded with a slight smile.

“Yes. In the first place… It’s because I found the note.”

um that’s right

Actually, I was the one who found the note on the set a few days ago.

-… ? that.

‘I observed the staff’s movements and saw them leave it on a chair.’

And the moment I checked the contents of the note… .

-Are you leaving this?

I thought it was a crazy jackpot.

A number of appropriate disclosure methods that could shake the game immediately came to mind… .

‘I didn’t use it.’

uh. Abandoned. The reason is simple.

It was because Testa was persuaded by Big Sejin and went all-in to gamble on stage.

It was a bit like me to increase the number of variables here.

‘Because if I step on the Wonder Hall like a dog, I don’t know what will pop out with the balloon effect.’

As he was so big, he didn’t know what kind of sudden thing would happen as the sparks flew.

Unlike Wonder Hall, which has been in the industry for decades and has hundreds of employees, we’re still a small startup, so we don’t have staff to take care of everything. so i bought some

It can be seen that he chose a detour politically.

I smiled as I put the letter from the leader of Ether on the table.

‘what… In fact, when it explodes, it’s not as efficient because it’s an Eter member rather than Wonder Hall.’

The company had to be destroyed, and even if I tried to destroy that irregular worker who was one with the company, it only left a dirty aftertaste.

And the note assigned to him according to Seon Ah-hyun’s insistence… It seems to have had a pretty good effect.

‘A conscience attack works.’

Also, a child is a child. I won’t be bothered for a while now.

“Good job.”

“Oh no.”

Seon Ah-hyun looked back at the letter with a pretty happy face, perhaps not feeling too bad.

‘It ended so neatly.’

I thought cool.

However, the person in charge of Wonder Hall contacted me a few days later… .

[Oh, I heard you won first place. Congratulations, Testa!]

It was Ha Ji-tae from T-Holic.

However, this attribute of being a ‘Wonder Hall official’ was now limited.

“… T-Holic seniors also congratulate you on your independence.”

[haha! No, how could the conditions be right so that we only became bosses together? What?]

That’s right.

These guys were planning to become independent soon after putting a sign on their own as the president.

But do you know why he was able to feed so much candy to the large wonder hall while barely independent?

Of course, because there was a corner to believe.

[So I think we’ll have a lot to do with our faces?]

“… … Yes.”

That statement is not polite… It’s a very plain truth.

‘Damn it.’

Surprisingly, T-Holic guys also ate shares from LeTi just like us.

They didn’t even bother to hide it. He hit the article.

‘Anyway, right now, the position doesn’t overlap with VTIC.’

T-Holic is a popular entertainment idol whose heyday as a performer has already passed.

In this case, T-Holic fans would prefer to know that a large agency’s organizational power and capital have been invested rather than worrying about being scattered due to individual activities.

Yes, but… look at this shit

‘Suddenly, the genealogy of male idols who received the Daesang is all on the same line.’

Seniors and juniors tied up with capital.

That’s how this crazy board was made… .

[I’m sure a lot of the juniors at Testa’s Orbit are going to see it~ Ah, this time, we really can all get together like this and do something like a sports day? How is it?]

The offer is terrible, so stop it.

“Wouldn’t it be difficult to fit the schedule?”

[Ah, of course, we old people have to match the young and busy testa’s schedule!]

Fortunately, the guy who was giggling as if he had a sense of humor soon turned back to saying good things.

[Ah, he said he was very busy this time too. It’s proof that everything is going well, so enjoy it. This album is also a hit!]

“… thank you.”

This was a plain truth.

Aggro and Testa, which appeared at awards shows in the U.S., attracted overseas inflows through synergy with internet memes planted in the English-speaking world.

Thanks to this album activity and Bae Se-jin’s acting activities in the past, System’s company rating has been smoothly rising.

‘I just need to pull a little more to prove my weight class.’

What is it?

[Let’s go on tour now?]

“Yes.”

Yes. It’s a concert tour.

From ancient times, there is nothing better than the number of seats to bet on an article with overseas status.

‘It’s a standard way.’

And, of course, we have placed our own content one by one for each hiatus caused by the tour so far.

There was no exception this time either. [Testa’s great battle to travel by selling hotteok…

Do

you remember?

However, there was a slight difference.

[But now it’s the opposite]

“… … .”

[Look at Testa earning money like a dang just to eat a piece of hotteok (Link)]

… Program title < Testa's Inner Lonely Gourmet Journey >.

Planning complete.