Debut or Die

Episode 524

Kim Rae-bin, who started composing for the first time in the spring of 14, has been making songs of various genres until now.

This is because he had nothing to hide and found something attractive in every genre.

-Rabinah, the classical music major I talked to the teacher yesterday… … You’ve been composing disco?!

-… I’m sorry, student Ravin, but you really composed all of your portfolios, right?

A level of comprehensiveness that baffled everyone who taught or scouted him!

Even in those days when the level of perfection was insufficient due to a lack of theory, he had a strong personality without being sloppy.

And after a transitional period in which he only cared about the perfection of the song itself, he finally came to care about external factors that he could not directly control.

– Who will call?

I compose with the singer in mind.

It became commercially viable.

And Kim Rae-bin happily went through that process as well.

As if putting together a puzzle of masterpieces to complete an exquisite picture, a song for the ‘singer’ came out through a delicate process and adjustment process.

It felt very attractive to Kim Rae-bin.

I’ve never hated it.

But the problem is… It is that there has never been a time when the singer was only himself!

A song that only considered yourself!

‘What should I do?’

Kim Rae-bin was taken aback.

Of course, it wasn’t the first time he recorded his own solo songs.

In Testa’s regular album, which included the title song ‘Arrow’, the majority of the songs were composed of solo songs by each member.

However, it was only part of the organic connection of each song in the album, with five or six producers participating, not just Kim Raebin.

So it was like composing a long symphony and assigning one movement to yourself.

It meant that he had never been in charge of an entire intro that represented an album so openly.

The only clue is the word of a trusted member!

– How about writing down your impressions while making this album?

It was the advice of Park Moon-dae hyung, who had always been an indicator until now.

‘… good!’

If so, I will make a song that will live up to the expectations of the group!

Kim Rae-bin made a firm commitment.

The fact that his own older brother had entrusted him with the teaser was completely ignored.

In the meantime, his goal of not focusing on stage fright was being achieved without realizing it.

– First step: Preliminary research.

Kim Rae-bin first focused on the fact that this intro song will be a song to introduce the group’s album.

Collecting the members’ diverse opinions felt like a necessity.

So, I started visiting the members with the least amount of time in the dorm because of their busy schedules.

… impressions I felt? why is that

It is Bae Se-jin.

After finishing a schedule related to < Doll Hunter >, he was surveyed while drinking orange juice.

He reflexively responded with a little bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of

No, it’s not that I don’t want to answer, I’m just asking a question! purely!

… ? Yes, I understand!

Kim Rae-bin, who had never been offended in the first place, just continued to ask the questions he wanted to ask.

-Collecting members’ impressions of this album!

However, Bae Se-jin, who tried to make a friendly face as much as possible, returned to his words with a calm expression and replied like this.

Park Moon-dae told you to express your feelings. I agree too. don’t be influenced by me

Sejin Bae took a shot of juice and left for the bathroom.

… ??

Kim Rae-bin was embarrassed!

‘failure… is it?’

However, he was able to find the next target without giving up.

What is Lavin looking for? Why are you standing here

?

He immediately burst into laughter after hearing Rabin Kim explain what had just happened.

hahaha! oh my… Rabin must be surprised!

He laughed inwardly at the lack of tact of a member with the same name, but soon he smoothly comforted Kim Rae-bin.

Rabin Kim unknowingly began to express his suffering.

As the song introduces the group’s album, I thought that the perspective of the entire group should be reflected. If I were alone in my thoughts, I wouldn’t change too peripherally… .

A~ I think it will be okay because Ravin has a good sense?

It wasn’t empty talk.

This is because Kim Rae-bin boasted an outstanding sense in relation to art as a whole.

Lee Se-jin glanced at Kim Rae-bin’s current outfit and even remembered the younger brother’s usual plain clothes.

It was a unique sense to be able to match and wear outfits with an atmosphere that could be excessive or embarrassing if they were just one inch off.

‘This isn’t something that can be learned.’

It was called hip in the public.

Although he was a bit ignorant in interpersonal relationships, he was a very talented younger brother who made up for it.

‘Cheerfully count your prayers.’

He’s a stubborn guy, so he won’t run away.

After completing the evaluation, Lee Se-jin smiled.

And since we’re all going to give feedback together when it’s all over, let’s do what Rabin wants to do comfortably for now!

… All right.

And as expected by Lee Se-jin, Kim Rae-bin seriously decided to focus only on himself.

‘As expected from the last ‘Byeolbyeolgok’, I only need to think of fun songs!’

… So I came to the conclusion that I could just make it as a hobby.

Oh.

That night.

Kim Rae-bin sat at the kitchen table and worked while chatting with Cha Yu-jin about his situation so far.

Cha Yu-jin, who had received grilled bulgogi rice balls for a late-night snack from Moon-dae Park, was in the middle of eating them.

The fluffy rice was soaked in sesame oil and bulgogi broth and grilled to a savory taste like browned rice.

However, when he heard Kim Rae-bin’s conclusion, he snorted while licking the rice on his fingers.

Kim Rabin I was mistaken.

what?

Am I mistaken?

okay! This is different from hobbies.

Cha Yoo-jin grinned.

Raebin Kim I’m not just making songs right now. We have to make a performance to introduce our album.

… !

That’s why it’s important that our fans like it.

From the video concept to composition.

Kim Rae-bin said that he had to come up with extremely commercial results while considering numerous things.

‘I want the fans to like it… .’

He thought deeply, and Cha Yu-jin thoughtfully asked instead of picking up the last rice ball.

Rabin Kim: How did you originally make the album for us?

Rabin Kim answered without hesitation.

I made it so that each of you can make the most of your own characteristics and strengths through this song.

Cha Yoo-jin grinned.

Do it again! The fans loved it!

‘ah.’

Yes.

‘I have to make a song that I can properly express.’

Kim Rae-bin found a clear goal as if his mind was clearing up.

It was an essential question that finally arrived.

-What are my characteristics and strengths as a singer?

And if we go a little further here.

Finally, a fundamental question arises.

-Who am I as a performer?

Kim Rae-bin realized that he would make an intro from here.

That’s how it went to the next step.

* * *

-Second step: Conception of the work.

A work full of what Rabin Kim is good at.

First of all, Kim Rae-bin thought he knew what he was good at on stage.

He had good communication skills, and was good at interpreting and expressing songs and creating irregular wow points.

‘Nevertheless, I suddenly couldn’t perform well on stage… .’

If so, there are other factors that we haven’t figured out yet.

‘It’s also a memory.’

He had a strong premonition that he would be able to properly assemble this work only if he took into account his lost memories, including steer Kim Rae-bin.

However, the way to bring back missing memories in a short period of time seemed far off.

‘Even Moondae-hyung looked embarrassed… .’

So he decided to take an indirect approach.

A member who had memories of Steer until the most recent.

And to the extremely trustworthy leader of this group.

… How was you on stage during your Steer days?

That’s right.

… … .

living room. Ryu Cheong-wu, who was reading a book borrowed from Bae Se-jin, continued to smile instead of answering.

And he answered slowly.

well done It wasn’t that different from now.

Still, if you have time right now, would it be okay if I could ask for a more specific explanation?

… … .

If it were another member, I wouldn’t have bothered to ask this question to Ryu Chung-woo.

Ryu Cheng-wu didn’t want to mention much about his days at Steer, so he said, ‘It’s embarrassing. Sorry.’ Because the situation has already been sorted out.

It was an implicit expression to ask not to speak of it in the future.

However, Kim Rae-bin had lost his memory of Ryu Cheong-woo at the time, and was not a great person to notice the other person’s subtle discomfort.

So, in the end, he got a specific answer from Ryu Cheng-wu.

Specifically… … . At that time, the company wanted to give each member a clear character even on stage.

What immediately came to mind when Rabin Kim heard the word character was a picture engraved on one of his main headphones.

rabbit.

You mean the animal characters that fans call you?

Similar, but not that specific.

Ryu Cheng-wu added briefly.

Someone always takes the bridge, and someone always stands in the center in the chorus… That’s it. Dyeing and glasses were mainly done only for certain members.

If Moondae Park had heard of it, they would have dismissed it as ‘a clumsy effort to classify the types of children according to the level of demand’, but the two, who did not know such specific vocabulary, simply nodded their heads in understanding.

I heard a similar story from my former agency. It’s a different abstract image from a position like dance vocal rap.

okay.

Ryu Chung-woo, who responded briefly, saw that Kim Rae-bin was waiting for a more specific answer, and eventually continued until the next word.

and you… Ravin played a lot of slightly darker and more colorful roles on stage than he does now.

Is that so?

okay. I received a lot of impactful parts.

To be honest, just hearing that story, I didn’t think ‘I lack the ability to digest it’.

However, logically, Kim Rae-bin nodded.

Then there’s a chance that I avoided the stage because I couldn’t digest the part I was in charge of!

… … .

Liu Qingyu was silent for a moment, but then shook his head.

no you did good

yes?

Don’t be suspicious and think so. Understand?

The strange tone may have sounded a bit forced, but it soon ended in a mild manner.

ah… . All right.

Kim Rae-bin nodded and got up from his seat.

It was because Ryu Cheong-woo seemed uncomfortable enough to understand even Kim Rae-bin, who was not well aware of ‘talking around’.

‘You seem tired, but let’s get up.’

Besides, he already had in his mind the next person to ask about this matter more specifically after Liu Cheng-wu.

As my brother was a fan of Steer, I thought there must have been some impressions of my performance. Was it really dark and colorful?

… … .

brother?

‘Because I wasn’t a fan.’

Park Moon-dae wanted to close his eyes tightly.

However, it was useless to say that now anyway, so I did not reveal it outwardly because it was a superficial topic.

Instead, he spoke insincerely.

Oh, it was like that. But it fit.

Kim Rae-bin was rather confused by Park Moon-dae’s comment, who swallowed the first words, ‘even in that X-like environment’.

‘You didn’t avoid the stage because you couldn’t do it?’

but why is that

Even in the midst of confusion, Kim Rae-bin answered honestly.

For some reason, I had a hunch that I would have to consider even the memories of that time.

This can be happen.

Park Moon-dae nodded his head politely instead of bruising.

And he spoke in a soft tone that was not reprehensible.

But what you’re making now is the intro of the testa album. I think it’s more important to focus on you, who has lived as a testa.

… !

Think about what you want to do right now and what you are good at.

that… That was right.

Could it be that he became obsessed with details because he got used to the inspiration triggered by small clues?

I’m not saying what you’re doing is wrong, so don’t misunderstand.

yes… … .

In the end, Kim Rae-bin could not ask more and had no choice but to end the progress of the day.

He went back to his bedroom and thought to himself.

‘What I would like to do… .’

And fell asleep soundly.

It was probably past midnight when he came to his senses again.

‘uh… .’

Kim Rae-bin, who closed and opened his eyes with a hazy vision, suddenly realized that the bed next to him was empty.

‘… Mundae hyung?’

He reflexively got out of bed and tried to quietly walk out of the door.

It was then.

that’s what you answered

A voice was heard outside the door.

It was Park Moon-dae’s voice that had disappeared from the bed.

… ?

Kim Rae-bin reflexively stopped his steps and peeked his head out of the door to see the voice.

That’s not all.

… … .

dark living room.

The indirect light cast a faint shadow on the faces of the two sitting.

Moondae Park.

and Ryu Chung-woo.

After Steer disbanded, you were the only one who knew Kim Rae-bin’s whereabouts. Because Cha Yu-jin was in the United States and Bae Se-jin was in the courtroom.

… … .

and… You must have been overly responsible at the time, so I think you would have checked the status.

Park Moon-dae spoke calmly.

What happened to Ravin at that time?

Kim Rae-bin held his breath.

An unfathomable silence lingered in the living room.

And

right.

Liu Cheng-wu answered in a low voice.

You saw what I told you not to see.

At that moment, something flooded Kim Rae-bin’s head.

… !

Images began to flow in, as if a dam broke and water burst through the cracks.

It was a memory.

* * *

It started with a sentence floating on the screen.

-It’s like a moneyed bastard X.